Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Star Readings: Eugene Lee Yang.

Try Guy! Eugene Lee Yang is a star on a mission. What is his mission might you ask? Simple. To make you think, make you feel and most of all make you laugh. He also wants to empower him and others like him. Eugene's job is to show us that the world we live in is a world full of color, possibility, humor and hope. With his daily, funny and sometimes thought provoking videos on buzzfeed. That's exactly what Eugene is doing.

Eugene and Health.

I chose this first because it came to me first. For the love of all the gods Genie, you need more better, restful sleep. He's always in his head, always thinking, always dreaming. Physically, he's good but I pick up him trying to eat better and slowly cutting back on the junk food. You're doing well Genie, just remember everything in moderation.

Eugene's Career.

Busy and very hectic. I pick up a lot of writing, editing and directing going on in the next six months. Not just for buzzfeed either. There is talk of him either begin involved in some television projects. I don't know why but NBC keeps coming in as well as MTV. Eugene wants to show us his world and the diversity within it. Don't be shocked if a try guys series isn't in the works. I pick up that there have been talks about it. Buzzfeed is growing very fast and beyond the internet. Even though the internet and social media are great platforms for it. I pick up within the next 3-5 years buzzfeed will be on our television/movie screens.

Eugene and Spirituality

Contrary to what we may see. Eugene is a very spiritual person. Especially when it comes to energy and the energies around him. He picks up on things and people very easily. He's also someone who is very private when it comes to spiritual things. He's had some experiences that have made him go within a great deal and think about the world from more than a material place. He knows deep down that he is very fortunate and grateful to be where he is in his life. As he has had many, many dark moments. Watch out for your depression Genie, don't let it get you. Use it as a teacher.

Eugene and Family.

When I tap into this part of him. I pick up his mother. For some reason he needs to see her more or they need more bonding time as well with his other family members. When it comes to family, family isn't just blood to him. Eugene has one of the biggest hearts and there are times where people have used that against him. He's not one to hold anger but he doesn't forget either. His friends and co-workers are his family just as much as his mother and blood relatives are. He wouldn't have it any other way. Also, because of what he does, it has allowed him to take pride in who he is and where he comes from. Everyday he's learning to truly love himself from the inside out.

Eugene Lee Yang, even though you don't know me and I've only known what I've seen from you through your work. I must say I am very, very proud of you. Keep going!

Love, Leo Brown :)

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Who is your favorite try guy?
Who should be the next star reading?
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Saturday, August 29, 2015

Getting REAL about relationships.

For most of my life, I've been in love with love. However, I've come to realize that I'm not alone in this fact. Many of us both men and women are or have been at one point and time. In love in with the mistress called L.O.V.E.  There comes a time when you stop begin in love with love and start getting real.

Not just about love but why we're in love with the idea and fantasy of begin loved but not doing the work of loving someone from an unconditional, genuine place. Now, I'm not saying there's anything with begin in love with love because love is one of our purest emotions but if you always choose to have rose colored glasses on. It can and will cause a problem. Here's a few things that I've seen that contribute to our ongoing infatuation with love,

1. Society: Society as a whole plays a HUGE role in how we view relationships. Think about it for a moment. When you look back on say, your childhood. What kind of love did your parents have with each other? Did they fight with each other? Were they openly affectionate with each other? If you were raised by a single parent, was your mother or father almost too guarded for their own good? Did they carry the pain of their past relationships with them? (example: Your daddy/mommy ain't shit)

How do you get real with this? Start by slowly going within and seeing how you may differ from the things society has taught you. While at the same time embrace the habits you've picked up from society and get to work both inside and out on correcting them if you so choose.

2. Movies/TV/Books: Even though we now know that the movies and television that we watch and even the books we read are all fantasy Some of us still wish for that our love lives or friendships were like the things we see and read.  There's nothing wrong with watching television, movies or reading books. The problem comes in when we become the damsel in distress or so fiercely self reliant that we either want someone to rescue us or we push everyone we meet that may be worth it away.

How do you get real with this? Realize that the things we see on the screen, in books and on the tube are just that. Things. They're not real. They're just aspects of our human character. There's nothing wrong with admiring a television character, an actor or a book character. Just take their traits and see them in yourself.

3. Friends/Couples: We all have been here at one point or another. We walk into a room and realize that we're the only single person in the bunch. Of course, for some of us this can be a bummer. We want to be where they are and at times we may think, "What is wrong with me?" or that we'll be single forever.

How do we get real about this? Look around you. Look at the couples and friends who are boo'ed up. Are they really happy? or are they just in the relationship because they think or feel that they can't or won't do any better?  How many times have you seen or heard your friends who are married fight, argue or received a phone call from that one friend who is always "going through it" with someone they're so in love with? What we must realize is that every relationship has problems, every relationship is different and that just because our coupled up friends say that they're happy it doesn't mean that they are. In other words, look beneath the surface.

4. Serial Dating/Serial Committers/Not Wanting To Be Alone.  We all know one or have even been one. That person who jumps from person to person in a matter of months, weeks or sometimes days. Why? Because the spark of the once budding relationship has flickered out and we're moving on to the next. Things end we all know that. However, if we go from person to person and don't take our part of the ending of the relationship. We're not only hopping but running and that's a problem.

How do we get real with this? Simple. Sit your ass all the down, shut what they call the fuck up and be alone. At least for six months to a year to figure yourself out. What do really want? Do you want a partner? ,A plaything or just the D? There's nothing wrong with wanting either but stop looking for someone to fill a hole that only you can fill. Love yourself and be happy with who you are and where you are.

Love, Leo Brown :)

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Star Readings: Donna Mills.

The eyes have it! Donna Mills has always captivated us with her sensual,smoldering looks and the way that she delivers a biting but truthful line. It doesn't matter what role she chooses to play. She makes sure that she is both seen and heard. Donna Mills was born to stand out and sometimes stand on her own. There's a reason she's a diva with a capital D. However, I'm going to look beyond the glam and find the woman behind those eyes.

Donna and Love.

What I pick for Donna is the feeling of “Ahh”. When it comes to love, romance and relationships. Donna is at the place now where everything just fits but there's still more to learn not only about herself but the man she is with. There's a deep love here for the simple fact that they both allow each other to have space both personal and emotional. He loves her more than she knows and there's sides to her that no one in front of a camera will ever see. They're each others everything and you wouldn't think it but there's a great deal of humor in their relationship. They keep each other laughing all of the time.

Donna's Health and Family Life.

Donna, don't worry so much about your daughter. She's going in the right direction and you've raised her to be very much a lady but a free spirited one. When it comes to family as a whole I pick up that Donna misses many members of her family, for some reason her mother pops into my mind and I pick her wanting to travel not only to visit certain people but just to go back to her roots for a bit. Which is something she may do in the middle of next year. When come to her health I don't pick up any huge heath issues as she's very aware of her body and listens to it quite well. However, I do pick up some minor joint stiffness when it comes to her wrists and legs. Nothing too serious girl, just keep moving and try a hand at yoga.

Donna's Career.

Two Words: Red Hot! Donna is acting, writing and producing. There's some things on the table right now. I want to say four projects that she is in talks with. I see her thinking about many of her projects as I see that she doesn't want to wear herself too thin. There's also a book coming as well but there may but more than one book. Especially one about aging gracefully while in front of the cameras. If you're looking for a kiss and tell book keep looking but there will be some revelations about her that Donna is going to reveal. I also pick up Donna becoming more emotionally aware as the book progresses.

Donna and Spirituality.

Meditative and contemplative. Those are the energies I get when spirituality and Donna come together. Donna definitely believes in higher power but she's not one to share it with you. When it comes to that aspect of herself. She's very private and I pick up that the power of prayer along with mind and body healing are very big parts of Donna's life. Something happened in Donna's life about 2-7 years ago that made her faith become very strong and very solid. She also is very intuitive and very wise to those who want to listen to her. Beneath the vamp is a kind, passionate and emotional woman. Donna cares about those she loves and the world around her. The next 2-4 years I see her becoming even more involved in environmental work and charity work concerning children. Ms. Donna Mills truly is an earthy diva with a heart of gold.

Love, Leo Brown :)
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Thursday, August 20, 2015

Embracing My Oshun/Aphrodite~Why I LOVE Begin Feminine.

I am a feminine man. I know, know it's hard to see because in the words of Madtv's Ms. Swan "I look like a man." For many, many years. I hated everything to do with the divine feminine that was within me. Because I was taught that for me begin feminine was weak, wrong and not to be messed with.

In both of the of the black and gay communities. There is a lot of shaming. Across the board. It doesn't matter if it is masculine, fat, fem, black, white, top or bottom. Shaming within our communities happen. Because of the sometimes mixed messages received within our community.

I felt as if I had to choose between the two polarities that live within not only me but within everyone. Even as I was growing up I always related to the experiences of a woman or saw myself in the women around me. Which was often times met with dirty looks or the you need Jesus talk. In my growing up, I was taught that if you weren't a masculine or didn't like fuckin' wit hoes, smoking weed or sports.

I didn't want to do the things that typical men did. I wanted to play with dolls, do Diana Ross impersonations and have long, flowing hair. Which I did in high school.   Sports and trash talking just didn't fit me. Even now whenever I walk into a barber shop. I always get a little scared. I think to myself "Bitch, don't runway walk too fast in here!" Or "Why did you wear those jeans? Ain't no trade in here!" 

Because I knew that at any given minute. My fem side was either come falling out of my mouth with a "Hello." or my hands as it's perfecting it's Shirley Bassey mannerisms or going to somehow blow my cover.

Even as I came into goddess worship and paganism. It was still hard to embrace that not only begin feminine was okay but apart of who I was. I'm not gonna lie. There was apart of me that wanted to blend in. I wanted a deep, bass voice, rippling muscles and to be rough and rugged. Now am I hairy? Somewhat. Do I have muscles? Hmm, if I workout a lot and I mean A LOT. Bass Voice? Forget it. Rough and Rugged? Chile' no. The only thing I like rough is my chicken and rugged. Does a blanket count?

It has taken me years to embrace that if you want a straight acting guy and there's nothing wrong with wanting a man like that but if you're looking for that guy within me you won't find it. How did I embrace my femininity you ask? Simple. I met Oshun/Aphrodite and all the other goddesses of love and nature.

Through my meetings with them they taught me that's okay to be just me. So what if I wore makeup, high heel boots, lashes and things of that nature others did too. I didn't have to choose. I just had to admit and embrace that this was part of me and that the things I wore were just that. Things. I am still a man. I am not less of a man if anything I am more of a man. Simply because I am the things I once was not. I am confident, comfortable and complete with me.

That's not to say that I don't or haven't embraced my masculinity. Quite the contrary, I have but not in what society has told us what masculinity is. I embrace my maleness in things like business, career and of course sexual prowess. What I'm learning is femininity and masculinity are nothing to be ashamed of. They are to be celebrated because you cannot have one without the other.

I AM SHE AND SHE IS ME! I AM HE AND HE IS ME!  Together we are one. So mote it be!

Love, Leo Brown :) 

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

The REAL reason people call/see psychics.

There's an old saying that goes. "People do different things for different reasons." That's true in some respects. If we were to sit and think for a minute about our patterns and routines we'll all notice that we may do something in a different way from someone else. 

When it comes to my profession. I've often found myself saying "Why are they calling or coming to see me?" I know that to some of you that may sound silly but it's true. In giving readings. I've often wondered what makes a person seek out me or someone like me. 

Over the years, I've come up with some good and some not so good reasons as to why people like you and I seek out services from a psychic/healer/medium/card reader etc, etc, etc. Here are a few of them. 

1. Confirmation: Have you ever gotten the hunch that something just wasn't right with the one you love or your job? Well, that's where the psychic comes in! Nine times out of Ten you already know that the man/woman is not the one or that it's time for a new career. What the psychic does for you is simply confirm that you're on the right track and let's face it we ALL need a little reassurance at times. 

2. Validation: Let's be real, we all want to be made to feel or told that we are valid and that we matter. For certain people, when they call a psychic. They don't necessarily want to be read but to they want to be told that they matter and that everything is working out for their greater good. When you feel valid about who you are and where you're going, you can do and be anything. 

3. Closure: Lost a loved one or Did your love just dump you? Well, here's where a psychic may come in. We're here to provide closure for you. Sometimes you want to know if that relative has made it to the other side or that the person who's dumped you is just as heartbroken as you are. There's nothing wrong calling or seeing a reader for these reasons. Besides, closure leads to healing and allows us to love again.

4. Begin told what you want to hear: Now when it comes to this reason, I don't view it as a good one. However, the old adage you get what you pay for is true. If you're going to psychic only to be told what you want to hear then I suggest you stay home or hang up the phone. However, if you find someone who tells you only what you want to hear than just remember the old saying "There's a sucker born every minute." 

5. Having Someone To Talk/Vent To: Some people call psychics just to talk. Nothing more or less. Some of us may feel that our friends and family have either judged us or they've heard about our plight too many times. That's where we come in. We're here to not only tell you what we see or sense but to listen to you. Believe it or not, hearing a client vent and sharing experiences can by a nice change of pace because it may help us to see our own shortcomings. Don't forget, we're human too. 

6. It's Novel/Don't Believe It/Don't Take It Seriously: I know that this last reason may come as a shock to some of you but this is true. Despite the leaps and bounds that have been made thanks to television many people don't believe in psychics and feel that it's fake. Or if they do believe in it many have the attitude of "You're the psychic, you tell me." which in of itself is an insult to the psychic that truly wants to help you.  If we knew everything about you we would not be here. Trust me! We're not here to con you or take advantage of you. However, if that's your gig than turn up. Otherwise, be respectful and honest with both the psychic and yourself and you should fare very well and be pleased with your reading. 

There you have it, these are some of the reasons people come to or call a psychic. Can you think of any more reasons? If so, leave them in the comments below. 

Love, Leo Brown :) 

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

That one time...I “heard” but didn't “listen” over and over and over again.

That one time...revelations of a lifetime.
by Leo Brown.

Gay men who are known as trade.
I had just gotten back from one of my favorite places in the world. Las Vegas. I don't know what it is about sin city but it resonates with me and I it. I absolutely love it! Everything down to the weather and homeless guys on the street. Even they sparkle to me despite begin covered in dirt. I had gone there to celebrate my turning 34 a week early. I wanted to bring in my 34th year with a bang and I got exactly what I asked for.

Before making this trip. I had been talking with a guy named Delroy. (Not his real name.) I met him on a telephone chat site and when we met. It was at least for me a very magickal experience. I thought “Finally, I've found someone who understood me.” We had been talking for over 14 months and it was nice to be desired and thought of.  As he and I would talk everyday for sometimes hours about everything from marriage, living together and even the possibility of having children. With everything going the way it had been and our conversations becoming deeper and more intimate.

The Excalibur Hotel, Las Vegas.
 I invited him to vegas with me. As I wanted he and I to spend time together in the hopes of us growing closer. Besides, the last time that he and I saw one another was in the fall of last year and we had tossed around the idea of us taking a trip together.  So when I had enough money saved. I asked him if he would like to join me.  Here's where I heard Delroy but didn't listen to him. He was happy to go but he couldn't afford it. Because he had just gotten a new car.  I didn't care about that because I had the money and could afford to pay for both he and I. That was my first mistake. Only I didn't know it...yet.

With the arrangements in place. Delroy and I set off to sin city. We were to be there for 4 fabulous nights and we were going to ring in my birthday while there. Before I was to get on the plane for my departing flight. I uttered a small prayer that went something like this:

Lords and Ladies, may I get to vegas without incident and if this man is meant to be in my life, show me who he really is.  Ashe' and Blessed be. 

With that prayer said. I went onto my flight. We arrived in vegas at 1:00 pm on a bright, sunny monday afternoon.  Our first stop was to be the hotel. I choose the Excalibur hotel because I had stayed there countless times with family. Plus, the hotel was in the middle of the strip which was great.  When we arrived at the hotel; I noticed that our cab driver was angry. As I opened the door to the hotel, I asked Delroy,

“Why is the cabbie so angry, did you give him a tip?” I asked.  His answer to me was this: “I didn't know I had to tip him, I just paid for the ride.”  Okay, I can see that. Some things you just don't know.

With that, we entered into the hotel to check in. We get to the front desk and check into our room.  As I am checking into the room Delroy chimes in and says. “Can we make that a double instead a single room?” 

Bish Whet! I was shocked by this statement. First, this was my room that I was paying for and secondly, we agreed that we were going to share a room together.  I will admit I was hurt by this move but in the end it worked out in the way it was suppose to.

After checking into our now double room. Delroy, then decides to take me to dinner in honor of my birthday at the local Italian restaurant that was in hotel's food court.  The meal was okay. During the course of dinner, Delroy asked me “What do you hope to get out of you and I taking this trip together?” 

I told him that I hoped that he and I would grow closer and that it would blossom into something deeper as we had discussed taking things to the next level.  Along with romance and affection. He agreed with me but said that he wanted us to be friends as well. Which I understood.  After dinner ended, he proceeds to pay for the meal. After paying for it, he then proceeds to complain continuously about how much the meal was.  “ I didn't know that this meal was going to be sixty goddamn dollars!?” Now, mind you, this was a suppose to be a dinner in honor of my birthday. In my mind, the dinner wasn't that expensive.

Here's where I heard him but didn't listen. I didn't listen to the fact that he was cheap and thought that I would front the entire trip after I paid for the hotel and airfare. I just heard that he was excited to be in vegas with me.

Also, I let him know beforehand that in vegas you're going to spend money. So it's not like he didn't know. The next two days were okay. We laughed, we talked and things were fine. Things came to a head on our final night in town.

As we sat down to have our final dinner. It was then that I came to a painful realization and the prayer that said to the gods had been answered. I had seen Delroy for who he truly was. It all started with him wanting to see a las vegas show. He had wanted to see Criss Angel and we agreed that we would split the cost of the show tickets.

However, when it came time to go to the box office. His tune changed. He wanted me to pay the total price of the tickets.  Which I refused to do.  After that, he started to pout and became angry like a child because things weren't going his way.

I then went back to the hotel room and allowed him to pout. Silly ass. A few minutes later, he then calls me and tells me to meet him in the casino. I go down and we proceed to go to dinner. On the way, I told him that dinner was on me. I don't know why I had done that but it was done. So we get to dinner and during conversation. I asked Delroy. “Now, that we've had this time together, where would you like this to go if anywhere?” 

His answer was simple and all that I needed. “I don't know.” he said. Upon hearing that I changed my mind about paying for dinner. (Even though I ended up doing it anyway thanks to the waitress giving us one bill.)

After that, we came to back to our room. In that moment, I realized who Delroy was. He was a user and a manipulator. During the whole time that we talked he referred to us as in courtship/dating. He did things that boyfriends would do, call me to say goodnight, tell me good morning and would even tell me that he loved me and missed me.

I thought that we were going somewhere. The reality was that we weren't going anywhere. He was just along for the ride. I heard him and saw the signs but didn't listen to them. The sadness, anger and rejection hit me like a ton of bricks. I felt so used and taken advantage of by Delroy.  A year and half of time, energy and yes, even money gone down the drain in an instant.

All I could do as I talked to one of my girlfriends was cry. I saw so much potential in he and I but it was not to be. In that moment I felt so stupid.  During that evening Delroy says to me “For what it's worth, I didn't mean to hurt you or use you.”  I simply replied. “Mmm-hmm.”  And proceeded to go to sleep. The next morning, he asked me. “Do you feel like I used you or duped you in some way?” I said to him “No, it's just the realization of it all, that's all.

The realization that he played with my emotions as if they were pieces on a chess board were what hurt most of all. You can't tell me to remind you of our anniversary and favorite gifts one minute and then take everything back the next minute. In the real world it doesn't work that way. At least not to me.

As he was packing his clothing to go back home. I looked at him not with anger but just looked at him. I saw nothing. He then comes up to me, tells me thank you for the experience, we shake hands and just like that he was gone.

I just stayed in bed and wondered what the hell just took place. I had cried my tears the night before so I wasn't sad. I was just in shock.

I simply got up, got dressed, called the front desk for a late check out and went shopping. It wasn't until I came home from my trip and was alone with my thoughts that the pain really hit. I heard him but didn't listen to him and the games he played.  So I can't and will not put the blame solely on him.

Has this experience harden my heart and giving nature? Yes. It's going to take a lot of time for the next person to get to my gooey center. It will also have to be mutual on both ends of the spectrum. Has Delroy ruined vegas for me? Um, hell no! If anything he made it sweeter. When he left I had a great time,

 I've decided to take a much needed break from the “dating/ mating game.” I'm not giving up on love but the rose colored glasses have definitely been slapped off.Which is fine with me. Does this experience hurt? Of course it does, but it's also a great lesson for me. True, honest, real love will come into my life when it is ready.  Which suits me just fine.

Love, Leo Brown :) 

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Star Readings: Jonny Mcgovern.

Hey Qween! The life of actor/singer/comic and television host Jonny Mcgovern has never been a boring one. Ever since bursting onto the music scene with such hits as Lookin' cute, Feelin' cute and Soccer Practice. If he's not making us dance, he's making us laugh. However, I want to go beyond Jonny's witty humor and find out what he's really like. That's what this star reading is all about.

What do I pick up for Jonny?
Music, music, music and writing. Even though he loves doing music, I pick that he wants to change his sound and do something that is more impactful That's where his talk show comes in. Hey Qween is going to go on for at least 2 more seasons. Even though he enjoys the perks of what he does. Jonny's actually a very laid back guy some might say a homebody. He loves his friends and family but once you're in his circle you're a friend for life. With Jonny loyalty trumps everything. However, his circle is very small so if you become a part of it consider yourself lucky. I also pick Jonny writing a book not about his life but almost like a very funny how to book with anecdotes in there. He wants to entertain and educate the community.

Jonny's Love Life
I pick up that right now he's having fun but there's someone in his life that is special. When it comes to love. Jonny is a big romantic and very tender with the right person. He takes his love life very seriously and feels that while yes, you should have fun, you should be honest with yourself and those around you. Jonny loves love both giving it and receiving it.

Jonny's Health
I pick up a lot of fluctuation when it comes to his weight as he sometimes eats based on how he feels. He's learning to put that behind him now as he has become more content with his body image and type. Jonny knows that he'll never be a size 4 or a muscle bound guy. I pick up that he had some struggle with weight for at least 2-3 years. He could become a muscle bound guy but it would take a lot of work. I pick up Jonny working out for both vanity and for health reasons as he wants to love what he sees when he looks in the mirror. Don't worry Jonny, you look great just the way you are.

Jonny and Spirituality
When it comes to spirituality. Jonny is very open minded. I don't pick up him begin a religious nut but I do pick up him believing in things greater than most may understand. He's very intuitive himself. He believes in tolerance for all people but to a point. If you're a dick then your spiritual practice becomes very small in his eyes. With Jonny he learns about the divine from experiences not just from books.

Jonny's Career
I pick up a lot of touring especially during the summer months and I also pick up Jonny doing many things behind the scenes such as producing, writing and there might be some directing on an independent level. Right now, Jonny's focus is career growth and spreading his wings. He loves music but I pick up him doing more talking than singing. Either way Jonny, look out for your career to open up a great deal more in the next 3-9 months. You are well on your way.

Love, Leo Brown :)

P.S. A psychic version of “Look at Huh!” would be everything!
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